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  I sigh. “It’s not that simple, James. You know that.”

  He pulls a pair of sweats on. “No, I don’t know that. What happened to all the things we talked about? You can do this. You don’t have to let your father hold your leash.”

  “Excuse me?” I turn on him, my cheeks going hot. “Hold my leash?”

  I can see that he’s gritting his teeth. “That’s not what I meant—”

  “No, it is. You mean that I’m my father’s little puppet and I’ll do whatever he says.”

  “No,” James says, folding his arms across his chest, “that’s not what I meant. I meant that what you do really has nothing to do with him. You don’t have to choose this.”

  I shove the rest of my things into my suitcase. “I don’t see any alternative. I have no means of my own. Maybe in a couple years after I have some real savings I can leave. There isn’t a choice.”

  His voice is softer. “I thought, after last night…”

  I finish zipping up the suitcase. “What? What did you think?”

  “I—you felt it last night, didn’t you?”

  I can’t pretend I don’t know what he’s talking about, no matter how upset I am right now. “Yeah, I did.”

  “And?” he asks.

  “And…I don’t have the words to describe it. It was perfect. But it doesn’t change what’s happening in my life.”

  The look on his face is suddenly desperate. “You can do this, Vera. I can help you with whatever you need. You can choose me.”

  I freeze, a shot of cold going through me. “Are you saying that if I go to work for my father, we’re finished?”

  His face hardens. “I don’t know. I do know that working for your father is the last thing you want. Everything I’ve learned about you tells me that you’re passionate—that you are fierce, and brilliant, and independent. But making this choice? Out of fear? It’s going to eat away at you, and all of that passion will be crushed. Along with everything that makes you ‘you.’ I don’t know if I want to see that happen.”

  I feel hot tears behind my eyes but I blink them back. “I don’t have a choice, James.”

  I take my suitcase to the front of the house, and I see the cab pull up outside. I don’t want to leave. It feels too final, too real. But it will be okay. He’ll be okay. I’ll fix it later. We’ll be okay. We have to be.

  “Vera.” I turn, finding James in the middle of the living room. There’s no hint of a smile or softness on his face. I do see sadness though. “I know what it’s like to not have any choices. You’re choosing this.”

  Outside, I hear the cab driver honk their horn. I shake my head and leave the house before I can say anything else to make this worse.

  17

  Vera

  My security photo is awful, but I suppose that’s to be expected. I feel like I’ve been through every office in this building filling out paperwork and getting an ID. I have an office already set up for me and it’s big for someone at my level. I suppose it’s meant to be a peace offering of sorts, but I still hate it. I hate everything. I hate the suit that I’m wearing, and I hate the color of these walls. I hate how I left things with James this morning. I hate that my suitcase is sitting in the corner and I hate the note sitting on my desk. I hate that it’s telling me to meet my father in his office at ten a.m.

  I hate the fact that I’m here at all, and he’s the cause. He’s not in his office when I go, but he steps in right at ten. I have to control my glare.

  “Good morning, Vera,” he says, sounding for all the world as if this were a normal day. It strikes me that he never questioned whether I would be here. He assumed that I would make a fuss, but do what he said—and he was right. I think I might throw up.

  “Good morning,” I say, making a point of keeping my voice utterly neutral.

  “Everything settled with your office and your pass?”

  I clear my throat. “Yes, thank you.”

  “Good. We’re going to meet some clients today. They want to show us the property they’ve bought and walk us through their preferences.”

  He leads the way out of his office, and I follow. We’re met by my father’s driver in a sleek black sedan. The thought of spending a car ride in awkward silence makes me cringe, but I get in the car. The driver takes us across L.A. toward the coast. Traffic is horrible, and about an hour later we pull up to an empty lot at the beach. The couple from dinner the other night is waiting for us. I don’t remember their names.

  My father greets them as Sharon and Alan. How did I miss their terrible names? They walk us across the property to where they want the house to sit. It’s on the top of a bluff overlooking the Pacific Ocean, and I can’t deny it’s beautiful. Sharon describes in detail what she’d like, and as much as I find her annoying she has good architectural taste. We walk along the grounds to the north and she describes the kinds of grounds she wants.

  Her ideas include a significant guesthouse and a tennis court, among other things. Eventually we reach some houses, smaller than the typical mansion. They don’t seem to be abandoned, but Sharon and Alan keep walking. “Down here, there’s a lovely little cove where I think a boat house would be just lovely,” she says.

  “How far does your property extend?”

  “Oh, another few acres or so.”

  Setting aside how rich they must be to afford this much beachfront, the houses bother me. “Who lives here?” I ask as we walk by. My father clears his throat in warning, but I ignore him.

  Sharon waves a hand. “Oh, doesn’t matter. They sold the land years ago. Couldn’t afford not to, I think. People who inherited some money and then lost it all, probably. I’m sure they had it coming. We’ll evict them as soon as construction starts.”

  My mouth falls open, and in that moment, I know that I can’t do it—I can’t be a part of this—not just this project, but my father’s company. These are the kind of people he deals with every day, and I don’t want to do it. I want to help people who need it. I have no interest in people who think the poor had it coming.

  James was right. I can choose.

  And I will not choose this.

  I walk away. I just turn and start walking.

  My father calls after me. “Vera, come back here please.”

  “No.”

  “What?”

  “I’m done.” I keep walking.

  “Vera,” he says, warning in his tone. “We talked about this.”

  I turn around and look him straight in the eye, defiantly. “No. You talked and you didn’t listen. I’m done. I’m not doing this.”

  He stalks toward me, lowering his voice. “You live in my house.”

  I laugh. “That’s your threat? I don’t need your house.”

  “If you walk away from this, don’t bother coming home.”

  Those words settle in my gut with a heavy finality, but also a relief. I feel like I always knew this moment would come. I just didn’t know what I would choose. I do now.

  “Okay. I’m sorry, Dad. But I need to do this my way.”

  I don’t look back, and on the way toward the road I call another cab.

  I go straight to the construction site, and I feel light as air. I have nothing. And it’s totally fine. I know that I’m going to be okay. Because even though I’m scared, I know that I have somewhere to go.

  I pay the cab driver and go into the house, listening for the telltale sounds of a power drill or hammering. There’s nothing though. I walk my way through but there’s still nothing. No one is here, and my heart sinks. I was sure that this is where he would be. He’s not working at my house anymore. Did he have another contract? I don’t know. I didn’t ask.

  I don’t even have his phone number because our relationship was a secret at first, and then we were together so much we never even asked. Even if I did have his number, though, I know that this cannot be fixed with a phone call. I sit down on the steps outside the house. It’s early, maybe he just hasn’t gotten here. After an ho
ur of waiting, my anxiety rises. After two, I know that I can’t stay anymore.

  Where would he go? I don’t know his favorite places. I don’t know where he goes when he wants to be alone. I don’t know where he goes when he’s blowing off work. But I have an idea. I do a quick internet search for our caretaker company and give them a call. It’s not hard to get them to give me Mike’s phone number when I tell them who I am, and in just a few minutes his line is ringing.

  “Mike Willis,” he answers.

  “Hey, Mike. This is Vera Caldwell.”

  There’s clear surprise in his voice. “Hi, Ms. Caldwell.”

  “Please call me Vera,” I say.

  “Sure.”

  “I was actually wondering if you had heard from James today?”

  “Yeah, earlier this morning,” he says. “He told me not to bother going to the Masterson house today, said he was taking the day off. Is something wrong?”

  “Nothing’s wrong,” I say, far too enthusiastically. “We just never exchanged phone numbers. You know how we met—well. I’d like to give him a call. We…had a little disagreement this morning and I want to apologize.” That’s minimizing it, but I don’t really feel like baring my soul to Mike.

  “Sure thing,” he says, giving me James’s number.

  “Did he say where he was going by any chance?”

  “No, sorry,” Mike says. “Sometimes he goes to the beach. Surfing. Walking. Other than that though…”

  “Thanks, Mike,” I say. “I hope I see you and your father soon.”

  He laughs. “You too. Let me know if you need anything else.”

  I can’t dial James’s number fast enough, and my heart plummets as it goes directly to voicemail. Shit. I can’t even ask him where he is. I call another cab. I search James’s address on the internet, pulling up a map to look for the beachfront closest to his house.

  I walk up and down that stretch of shore for a long time, hoping to see him. But he’s not there. I try to let the ocean soothe me, the waves tickling my bare feet. Even that doesn’t calm the anxiety in my heart. I need to fix this. I need to tell him what I chose. The sun is beginning to sink in the sky when I make my way back to his house.

  He’s not there, but I’m not leaving. This time, I will stay until he comes back. It’s his house, he can’t stay away forever.

  I take off my shoes and curl my knees up to my chest. I keep my phone in my hand, hoping that maybe he’ll see a missed call on his phone and return it. It’s a long shot, but hope loves long shots. The time while I wait feels like an eternity. I know I should get up, maybe go someplace and eat something, but I’m too upset to feel hungry and I’m not going anywhere without talking to James.

  It’s just getting dark when he pulls into the driveway. He sees me and stares. I see relief on his face, and worry. He gets out of the car and comes up the drive, but stops a few feet away from me, seeming unsure. He’s here. Finally. I can’t even describe the feeling that sinks into me, and what exactly it means. “Hi,” I say.

  “Hi.”

  I don’t get up yet. “I’m really sorry about this morning.”

  “I’ve been driving around all day, kicking myself for the things I said. I’m sorry too.”

  He comes to me and pulls me to my feet, pulls me into his arms and holds me.

  “I told my dad off,” I say, and it is so freeing.

  “What?”

  I tell him what happened, and his smile gets bigger and bigger. By the time I finish, I’m trying to tell him through all of his kisses. “I’m so proud of you,” he says.

  I laugh. “Thanks. Do you think…would it be crazy to ask if I can stay with you until I get things sorted out?”

  “Vera, you can stay with me as long as you want. Forever, even.” He takes my face in his hands, and there’s no hint of a smirk or a joke. “I’m in love with you. Please stay. Stay with me.”

  My breath catches and I know what I’m going to say next with the same certainty I knew how to choose today.

  “I love you too.”

  Epilogue

  Vera

  Six Months Later

  Peru is beautiful in the morning. I look out my window at the mountain view and stretch. James is still asleep behind me, and I’m going to let him. He worked hard yesterday, and he worked me hard last night. He deserves his rest.

  It’s our last day here, and I’m going to miss it. Hopefully we’ve done some good. With our crew we’ve built ten new homes for people in this rural area, and now we’re completely finished. Today we’ll meet with the local government to evaluate what we’ve done and make arrangements with them for future trips. I’m excited at the prospect of getting to talk to them about exactly what they want and need in terms of housing and infrastructure.

  If we can make it happen, we’ll try. We’re not a full non-profit yet, this trip being funded by several charitable corporations including The Harrison Foundation. But I know James won’t let me rest until I finally start my own company. And I won’t let him rest until I’m sure he can do it with me.

  I check my email on the phone, sketchy as the internet is here. I have an email from my bank, and…woah. That’s not what I was expecting. There’s a deposit for two million dollars into my account, with a personal message:

  Sorry it took me this long.

  Good luck.

  Call me soon.

  Love,

  Mom.

  I beam at my phone. Thanks, Mom. This money is coming at the perfect time. With it, James and I can come back here for another building trip. We can expand our original plans and the amount of houses we were going to build. The progress will still be slow, but it will be full of good help. Screw sleeping, I’m going to tell James.

  When I turn and see him, he takes my breath away. The sheet is draped across his legs, and the rising sun is striking the muscles in his stomach. He is the world’s most perfect painting. Except for the enormous morning wood sticking up from beneath the sheets. I know his favorite way to wake up. I slide onto the bed and duck my head under the sheet, coming face to face with his cock. I don’t think I’d ever considered a cock gorgeous before I met James, but it is.

  I open my mouth and take him in, diving down to take him all the way into the back of my throat. He shifts on the bed and I know I’ve gotten his attention. I hold my mouth down on him as long as I can before coming up for a breath and teasing his tip with my tongue.

  James groans, “You’re going to kill me, after last night.”

  I lick along him, grazing him with my teeth just to feel him jump. “What?” I say in mock horror, “You’re not man enough to take me again?”

  He starts to say something but I take him deep into my throat again and whatever he was going to say is lost in one long groan. He pulls me off his cock and flips me over, his eyes fiery and fully awake. “You question my manhood?” he says, matching my mocking tone. “If that’s the case, I think it’s time for something we’ve been saving. We’re in Peru. It’s time for firsts.”

  I give him a look. “What are you talking about?” It’s hard to imagine there’s something he hasn’t done to me.

  He leans down and takes a nipple in his mouth, playing with me before answering. “I’m going to fuck that sweet ass of yours.”

  My pussy clenches. He’s been working up to that for a long time, and I can’t say that I’m not ready—I am—I’m just nervous. My mouth is suddenly dry. “Okay.”

  He leaves the bed, digging in his bag. Then he pulls out a bottle of lube and tosses it over to me.

  I tell him, “You knew you were going to try to get me to do this.”

  The only response I get is his slow smile. He gets back in bed, turns me on my side, and lies behind me. I can hear him stroking his cock with the lube and I shudder in anticipation. Then I feel his fingers probing, pushing into me. My body heats in response. I know this feeling, I know the kind of orgasms he can give me from here, but his cock…it’s so much larger. His fingers dis
appear and I feel that same cock against my ass. God it feels even bigger than when it’s in my pussy.

  James reaches around and starts to play with my clit, teasing me and warming me up as he works into my ass. I’m gasping as he pushes in, and I’ve never felt this full. He goes slowly, but he doesn’t stop. It seems to last forever and I feel him in such a different way and it hits different nerves. I already feel one of those deep orgasms coming on, and he circles my clit suddenly, so fiercely that I come unexpectedly in a hot rush.

  It’s fast and bright and I cry out as he pushes the rest of the way into me. He toys with my pussy, drawing my orgasm out from my body, as everything comes down from the overload and adjusts to the feeling of him in my ass.

  Just when I think I’ve adjusted, he moves his hips, and I curse. He’s so far in me and it feels amazing and I can’t believe he’s all the way inside. His lips are on my neck and his hand drifts up to my breasts, tweaking my nipples before returning to my pussy. He starts to rock, and I know that I’m going to come again. On instinct, I squeeze my ass around him and he growls in my ear, rocking faster. He slips his fingers inside my pussy and I see stars. I love this feeling of being fucked in both places, and he knows that, and it’s so much better now.

  I can’t breathe, I’m moaning so much, I can’t stop. Every thrust into my ass sets off a lightning burst of pleasure behind my eyes and he finger fucks my pussy relentlessly, driving me to the edge and over. I am not prepared. The world goes a blinding shade of white and I scream James’s name. Everything in me contracts, and I hear him cry out. The pleasure comes in waves that wreck my body—I’ve never had an orgasm like this—and dark spots form in front of my eyes as another orgasm hits on the heels of the first. My entire body goes limp and I am at the mercy of this pleasure. I can’t move, I can’t see. I can only feel.

  James is still in my ass and I feel him come, warming me from the inside. When he slips out I feel the loss. I’m still in free fall, my body oversensitive and tingling. He turns me over toward him, and he’s smiling. “I think that was worth the wait.”